#bad news is now we're talking about Planning Ahead and then Following Through and oooouuughhhh

[blujayonthewing]

problem with wanting to paint-- even in a sketchbook you try to carry with you all the time-- is that SO often the thing that specifically makes me go 'ooohh maybe I should paint that' is a lighting condition that has changed completely by the time I can even finish retrieving my supplies from my bag

[nyansense-the-nyanbinary]

#usually the sky doing Something#today it was the sunlight coming through the window and shining through the mini bottle of fireball I got in my stocking last night#and then left on the counter#'sunlight exists' is GENERALLY! NOT! so ephemeral as specific lighting and color in for example the sky in the evening#which keeps changing very quickly#but in this case the sun went behind a cloud and then I looked out the window and it was completely overcast 😭#life painting is not a reactive game I fear#terrible news for my adhd ass#like the good news about 'sunlight coming through at an angle' is that the sun's gonna be at that angle for awhile yet#so I could try again a different day if it's sunnier#bad news is now we're talking about Planning Ahead and then Following Through and oooouuughhhh#about me

ops tags

SOBBING CRYING THROWING UP

yeah...,,the fucking struggles

problem with wanting to paint-- even in a sketchbook you try to carry with you all the time-- is that SO often the thing that specifically makes me go 'ooohh maybe I should paint that' is a lighting condition that has changed completely by the time I can even finish retrieving my supplies from my bag